mother's day

hmm...mom,happy mother's day...i wish i could say it but i don't know how to say it. why it is hard for me to admit my mistakes! so many mistakes i have made but yet still could not find the right moment to say how sorry i am! argh!!!! i hate myself so much! last night, when daddy called me, i really want to talk to you so dearly! but after talking to you few seconds, i know you still mad at me and i never blame you for that....i know it has always be my mistakes, i know that. and it breakes my heart when you just pass the phone over to some one else, when all i want to do is just talking to you....and i...hate myself...i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry.....(what more can i say) hmmm

the sound of your voice still echoes in my head, those words still linger in my mind...whatever happened that day, and how you felt was never my intention, and u should have known that was never my intention, not even after thousands of lifetime, i may never have the heart to hurt your feeling! you should have known that! yes, now i agree with what a friend of mine once said to me, life is useless when you are living without your parent blessing, especially your mom. but don't worry. I won't do what you did. (didn't have the guts...huu)

but still, i think maybe that is why i cannot sleep after this few days because i never had a guilt this big!

happy mother's day once again mom... and dad, thank you for all you have done and sacrifice for our family. you are the greatest person i would always cherish in my whole life. no one can ever compete you. thanks for always be there for me, through good and bad, thanks for not getting mad at me for all the stupid mistakes that i always did and seems like never stop doing it. i am truly sorry for everything.